March 9, 2016

Secret Garden

Her heart was a secret garden
                     and the walls were very high

Do you know that feeling, when you get too attached to something, and sometimes you just didn't want to let it go. It's a strange feeling, but somehow it's the best feeling in the world. Like being protected by something. So when others started to shaken things up, the thought of " Ah, they didn't know any of it. They were wrong. It's okay." make you feel better and the only thing that matters is how yourself are thinking and interpreting it. It has always been my self defense for years until i realized what exactly i've been doing. It's dangerous. How my heart and mind being too comfortable with it. But as i said on my third sentence, i felt protected. It used to be my gravity.

And i couldn't help but laughing at myself. Because everything is a choice and i used to pick the rough side. A few hours ago i was reading some blog, it has been a long time since last time i read people's blog. The one that catches my attention is Alodita's. I knew her from Instagram. I didn't remember seeing her account but i think i might have saw her picture once or twice. I discovered her website when i was googling a product review. Yes, a beauty product. She post a great review because she explained everything clearly.

March 1, 2016

1994 Thoughts


1994 (1)
Fate doesn’t come to you at just any time. At the very least, if you want to use the term fate, it should happen at the most dramatic moments brought by coincidence. That’s what makes it fate. That’s why another term for fate, is timing.

1994 (2)
..................................................... one of those lights,............................................. helped me out....................................................... ................................ like fate..................... first......................................... That damned timing.

1994 (3)
In the end, fate and timing do not just happen out of coincidence. They are products of earnest, simple choices that make up miraculous moments. Being resolute, making decisions without hesitation, that is what makes timing. He wanted her more than I did. And I should have been more courageous. It was not timing’s fault. It was my hesitations.

- Reply 1988

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And now i am here, still amazed by how genuine their friendship were. This series is the best, for friendship, for family and for love. It felt surreal. And i can't sleep. Why does it have to end. :(